I hate myself...

To be honest, I'm really not satisfied with myself.
I suck at studies, I don't know how to talk, I'm a coward and so on.

Trial's coming.
I wanted to study.
I know I have to study.
But I just don't have the will and motivation to do it.
I'm always easily distracted by other things.

My friend is unhappy.
I want to help.
But I don't know how.
I don't know how to talk.
I don't know how to comfort people.
I don't know how to make people smile, laugh.

The worst part of me is I'm a coward.
She's just there.
Standing just 2 feet away from me.
Yet I don't have the freaking gut to talk to her.
She's not alone, she's with her friends.
But they're all human beings, so am I.
So why scare to start the conversation?
I don't know.
I just let this chance slipped away...
I'm the stupidest person in this world.

What's wrong with me anyway?
I hate myself.
Serious HATE myself...