Chinese New Year 2011

This CNY is special for me.
Well, what's so special about it?
The most obvious thing would be... I'm an uncle already =.=
That sounds old...

I've only seen all my cousins of my father's side once a year.
We're not very close.
We hardly talk to each other.

I looked at other people, they're very close to their relatives.
That made me look weird.
Every New Year, we take ang pao and do nothing.
That kills all the fun and excitement of New Year.
I don't really like it that way, although I didn't do much to change it... which is what I regretted...
I wanna change.

I'm inspired by my cousin.
He's good at socializing with others.
He makes himself the host and entertain the guests, even though it may not be his house or he may not be the host.
I think he's a good leader.
I wanna be like him, or even better...

I guess that would be my New Year resolutions.
I'm gonna go back a changed person.
Hope that my resolve is strong enough this time.

Happy Chinese New Year ^^

Me ^^

I have a question to all Capricorns out there.
Is it true to say that "loneliness" is one of the best word to describe us?
Well, I doubt anyone will be reading this blog.
So answer it, whether or not you're Capricorn.

Okay, this time I'll tell you something about myself.
I'm a very simple person.
I'm actually not very ambitious, or should I say I have yet to found out what my ambitions really are.
Also, don't think that I've lots of secrets.
I don't... I didn't say cause no one asked.
No one bothered, no one cared.
So I didn't say much.
If you wanna know I don't mind telling, unless it's very personal like IC number.

I have a bad habit.
I like to disturb people.
Yeah, I hated it...
If someone would just cared a little bit more, I think I can kick this habit real quick.
Well, that's all I have to say.
Ask, if you want me to tell more.

Ulquiorra & Stark

Now I understand why I like Ulquiorra and Stark the most among the 10 Espadas...
Because they represent "Emptiness" and "Solitude".
And these two words pretty much describe me.

This holiday has made me feel that I'm further away from my friends.
The distance between us grew.
Well, I can't blame them for that.
They have their own lives to live.
So... I should get a life too.
A life without them in it would be the best to keep me away from those two words.

There's a special complement for a certain someone.
I love the way you lie.

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I've lived almost 18 years now.
But I still don't act like 18 years old, more like an 8 years old...

Some people call their friends "brothers" and "sisters".
What does it actually mean?
From my experience, it doesn't mean anything.
You're neither closer to them than friends nor family.
You're just like everybody else.
It's just a name to call people.

I called them "jiejie", act cute a little...
Thinking that might get a bit of their attention.
Don't you think this very thought is childish?
Yes, I AM childish.
I'm just a kid who doesn't learn, doesn't grow up.
Getting their attention?
What the hell?
Who would ever put their attention on someone like me?
It was always been me.
I'm the one who talk to them, sms them.
And what is the common thing you see here?
What word appears in your mind?
"DISTURBED" <-- that's what appeared.
Try putting that into the sentence again.
"I'm the one who DISTURBED them."

Wai Loon, I know you thought about it, but... THINK HARDER~
And don't just think about stop disturbing them, DO IT!!!
Don't ever say try...
DO or DO NOT, there is no try.
Grow up dude, this is your fate.
Capricorn is born like that, face it...

I'm not ready...

That day, I told her the truth...
I can feel the pain after her reply.
I was upset for a few days.
But after that, I feel normal...
Am I numbed by the pain?
Or I've never truly liked her before?
I don't know...
People often say "listen to your heart"...
What I hear is bip bop bip bop =.=
But I definitely don't like to see her with other guys.

Lately, I've thought about it a lot...
Perhaps I'm not ready for a relationship yet.
I'm still a kid.
I'm still immature.
I'm still incapable of taking care of myself, let alone taking care of her.
I don't have the ability to fulfill her needs.
Perhaps I'm really not ready for this.

Relationship is a complicated thing.
I'm still too young to understand that.
And I'm not smart enough to understand that.
Perhaps time will be willing to sacrifice itself to teach me.
Until it thinks that I'm ready...