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Now is exam period.
That only means 1 thing.
It's a lonely period.

Everyday I feel the same loneliness...
Without friends, without the mood to study.
There's really no one else to blame but myself if the result sucks.
I'm just not good at dealing with these things.
Well, at least there's one person who'll understand me.
Cause he's in the same situation.

Getting a girlfriend?
Yeah, that will really help.
Except that... who would fall for someone like me?
Not very handsome, not very rich, not very smart... just a nobody...
What's more, I'm not good at talking.
I can't even proceed in a conversation nicely, let alone sweet and romantic things.
I should just go back to become a baby.
Since I don't even know how to talk, I'm no different from babies.

"Happy"

I find it hard to share something with my parents.
It's not some teenage problems which usually is very hard to share with parents.
It's just something normal.
Something that happened in school.
I just want to share it...
So perhaps they can understand me a little more.

But every time before the story ends, the lecturing cuts in.
I know the story also relates to my weakness.
But could you just listen to the story until the very end first?
Let's have a laugh and enjoy it before the lecture starts...
But you didn't give it a chance.
The story have not yet reached the climax...
The lecture starts already.
Is it so hard to just let the story goes till the end?

When I share things with you, lecture comes first.
When I don't share it, you'd say I just stick to the computer.

Pressure... Stress...
Who doesn't have those?
I just don't show it.
I'm just pretending that I don't have any worries or trouble.
I don't want others to see me facing troubles and make them worry about me.
I don't like it.
So I just pretend nothing happened, and bear everything myself.

My sister, my cousins...
They all have scored straight A's.
They're smart of course.
The pressure and stress to maintain that record is all on me.

I want people around me to be happy.
I make people happy, but not myself.
"Leading a happy life is the most important thing."
This line coming from me just look so weird...