Stupid...

Don't know who's the fellow that arrange the timetable for this exam.
All the hard subjects are in the same week.
How can we possibly remember everything clearly?
Or is this his objective?
To make us have bad results.

Besides that, there's also something weird about the time given for our English Paper today.
We were given 1 hr 45 min to write 2 essays.
And 2 hr 15 min to do objective, comprehension, summary, short stories.
We don't have much time to write the essays and have too much time to do for paper 2.
Its torturing when you've finished your paper and you can't fall asleep when you want to.

Bought Star Wars The Clone Wars : Republic Heroes game today.
Yet, its another stupid thing.
Its doesn't have a crack file.
I was so excited that I can play a new game.
Then I wasted whole afternoon trying to download the crack file from internet.
And I don't know why every file I downloaded is corrupted.
Till now I still can't play the game.
That's stupid...

Too many stupid things happened to me today.
Tomorrow there'll be an extra class.
Hope tomorrow won't have anymore stupid things happen to me.

Wow...

Yesterday too tired, didn't update blog.
Yesterday was Maths exam.
And all I can say about it is 'damn it'.
I don't know what happened to me.
I thought this time I might be able to get good results.
But then, I checked my answers with others.
I found out that I got 7 careless mistakes for paper 1...
I was like...
OMG!
Hope my paper 2 don't have much mistakes.

Today didn't go to school.
Cause I don't feel like taking exam anymore...
Just kidding.
Today they're having Bio exam.
So I stayed at home.
I've planned to study History cause I don't seem to have much time left.
But things just don't always go according to plan.
I watched 6 episodes of Gundam Seed and finished the series.
Then I said I want to study.
I took out the books and studied for 1 hour.
Then I went and took a nap.
And watch TV all the way till 8pm after I woke up.
This sure is really out of the plan.

Suddenly have the urge to play Star Wars games.
I don't know why.
Maybe cause I saw the Clone Wars : Republic Heroes at the shop last week.
I went to search for some game reviews.
And I found the review for the Wii version of the game.
I like the comments...
'The characters never shut up'
'I gave it a 5/10, but after I played the multiplayer mode, I find it very interesting and decided to give it a 6/10'
Lol.
The multiplayer mode is 'so' interesting that the reviewer rate it 1 mark higher.
I don't know about the game.
But it does look interesting to swing the Wii console around to move the lightsaber.

1st Day Of My Death~

1st day of exam, as well as 1st day of my death.
I'm speechless.
All I can say is 'wow'.
I got the question paper and the 1st thing that came to my mind...
'Shit! Prepare to fail...'
Well, I don't really think that's true.
But for sure I won't get an A for BM.
Perhaps 50+ or 60+.
My hand sure is hurt after I finished answering the paper.

Tomorrow will be doing all the calculations...
Thursday will be a holiday cause its Bio paper ^^
Can relax 1 day.
But I doubt I have time to relax.
Planned to study today.
But ended up playing all day just because tomorrow is a subject that I'm quite confident in.
Friday... BI paper.
My hand's gonna hurt again.
Sigh, poor hand.

A Funny Day.

Today is quite a funny day.
During PJ period, I sat there studying instead of playing, as usual.
Then the Form 1 came.
They have PJ exam today.
So I watched them almost the whole time.
Their first exam - Push-up.
I didn't say that I'm a pro at that.
But seriously, what the hell are they doing?
To them, push-ups.
To me, its more like doing something with the floor.
Something that underage aren't suppose to see.
I can't describe it so graphically, so just get the point...

After that, we had our BM period.
The teacher mentioned something that we all have forgotten - Program Nilam.
Yup, our forms are completely empty.
So he told us to simply fill something in.
There goes our creativity...
Here's a small part of our results :
-Peperangan Bintang II : Perang Klon
-Tuan Cincin : Dua Bangunan
-Lelaki X
-Lelaki Besi
-Pertukaran
-Atas
-Badan Jennifer
-Tekanan-G
Aren't we smart?
Haha.

After school I stayed back cause my friends asked me to teach him Math.
And its such a coincidence.
I'm not very good with that particular chapter that they wanted to ask me.
So its kinda weird...
"How to do this?"
"Don't know, I copied answer from Panda."
But I did my job.
I taught them something at least.
Haha.

Why?

Yup, Tuesday is the start of the Final Exam.
So why I can still be so lazy to study?
I don't know why...
I'm seriously not in the mood to study anything.
I wonder what's gonna happen to my result this time...

She used to be more friendly to me.
Asked me out to watch movie together... (we're not alone, don't think too much)
Until that moment...
She started avoiding me, even though only for a short while.
After that she said she was scared of seeing me.
Reasons are unknown.
But my friends did told me the possibility of the cause.
Even though its not as serious as last time, but I can see that she's still avoiding me.
She used to call me 'Didi'.
Though that makes me sound kinda like a small kid, but I don't really mind.
Now she didn't even call me anything.

Why is this happening?
Why can't we go back to when we first knew each other?
Why can't we be like that again?
Please rewind the time for us...

Bored...

Woke up late today.
Cause yesterday night watch DeathNote till 2am.
But I can't see the difference.
Even if I slept at 11 something or 12, I'd still wake up at 10am.
The only difference is how long I sleep.

Started studying Sejarah today.
And as expected, haven't finished reading 1st page I felt like sleeping.
I can only study without falling asleep by using one method...
Eating while studying.
So I asked my mum to buy lots of snacks for me.
This is the only way to keep me from falling asleep while studying.
Will I get fat?
Yeah, I hope so.
No matter how much I eat I still won't get fat.
So I don't really care eating lots of snacks.

I don't know why today felt extremely bored and no mood.
Was it because of the topic I discussed with my friend?
Well, before talking about that I'm already bored enough.
But after that I think its worsen.
I became more bored...
Perhaps I shouldn't talk about that.
Cause every time I talked about that particular topic, I'd have no mood to do other things.

I always wish that people around me is happy.
I see them happy, I'll be happy too.
But now everyone's busy with exams...
Don't really think that people will be happy now.
That's why I'm not happy too?
Or is it because of other reasons?
Well, even I, myself can't answer that.

How To Make The Right Choice?

How to make the right choice?
This is something very hard to say.
We must consider lots of things before making a choice.
And that choice might not be the right one as well.
So what is the RIGHT choice?
Is the so called 'right choice' same for everyone?

When we're making a choice, should we think about the greater good?
Or just consider our own benefits?
Which of these will make the choice right?
Can someone actually answer this question?

Every time I made a choice because I thought that is the best option.
But I don't know why, I always regretted making that choice.
I feel that that choice is a mistake, a wrong one.
Can someone tell me why?

Boring~

Today is yet another boring day.
I wonder why are we even going to school.
All we do is play poker, do magic, listening to songs.

But for me and my friends, we've got a rehearsal for tomorrow's prize giving ceremony.
We were waiting for the teacher to allocate a seat for us.
So we waited cause all the teachers seem busy.
And the rehearsal started, but we still don't know where's our seat.
So we just sit behind the hall.
We stand out so much cause we're the only ones who's not sitting on a chair.
And yet, no one notice us.
Until our Robotics Team teacher talked to the teacher-in-charge.
Few minutes later, a teacher came to us.
'Tomorrow the 3 of you will be sitting in front'
I was like...
'Oh, finally... wait... front row? Damn it.'
Well, hope the teacher won't stop us from listening to songs tomorrow.
Otherwise we'll be sitting there like an idiot with nothing to do.

Tomorrow will be another boring day.
Already more than 3 quarter of the class decided to cut class.
In fact, I wanted to do so as well.
But because of the prize giving ceremony, I have no choice.

I really want to talk to her more.
But I just can't overcome my timid personality.
I don't think I have a problem with that when she's alone.
But with her friends around her, I just can't get myself to talk to her.
I hate myself for that.
Let's forget about that for now.
Since exam is next week.
I should let her, as well as myself, to concentrate on studying first.
I'll try to solve that problem after that.

Moodless Day

Moodless and boring day.
What I've done in class today?
Do Add Math... Do nothing...
Attended our Robotics Club meeting after school.
Yet again, I've done nothing.
Just design a logo for the club.
No big things happened.

This boring day became worse when I got the news - Final Exam is on next week...
I was expecting it to postpone...
Since our school haven't got the timetable, don't know for what reason.
Just how am I gonna study with this kind of mood?

Its been quite some time since I last talked to my Friend.
And today I got out of class earlier.
Hoping to skip a boring class and meet some Friends.
And yeah, a typical situation.
I see them, they didn't see me...
I guess being too observant isn't really a good thing.
Cause I'll notice something that is better not to notice.
Now I found out that sometimes being ignorant is a lot better than knowing something.
Act innocent, act blur, act cute...
That's what I'll do then.

Today...

Got the news today...
Mr. Prabha will not be in the school for 1 week.
As expected, everyone is very happy.
Although I like his class, but he's not here is also a good news.
Can take a break, so I don't get stressful like Chin.
And also Mr. Arbain is not in school today as well.
We're very happy.
Today we go to school to play, instead of studying.
Playing poker and listening to songs for 3 period.
And in front of teacher also ^^

Talk about teacher...
I think the best teacher in the school will be Miss Tay, to me, that is.
She's a very pro and dedicated teacher.
She can teach Math, Add Math, Moral and Physics.
Wow...
We also get present from her if we got good results for our exam.
During non-exam period, we might get free chocolates from her too.
And also, we can save on glue and stapler bullets ^^
I always do the subjective questions on test pad due to the lack of space in the book.
I just put the paper into the book and pass it up.
When I got it back from teacher, its already glued on my book.
So I saved a lot of glue and stapler bullet, haha.
Miss Tay is the best teacher ^^

Big Achievement

Studied Chemistry for the whole afternoon.
I'm seriously amazed.
I didn't feel like sleeping at all.
Although I did took a nap.
But was interrupted when my sister called me.
Yeah, after that I can't fall asleep... don't know why...
And just like that, I left the last chapter and also the hardest chapter - Salt.
I'll continue that tomorrow.

I seriously hope that the exam will postpone.
Cause I don't think I can finish all the subjects.
Although I'm always studying at the eleventh hour.
Even if the exam really postpone, I'd still study at the last minutes.
That's what the Low family do...
Do everything at the last minutes.
But still, all of them are very successful.
For example my sister, she studied at the eleventh hour but still got 13 1A for SPM.
599/600 for Core Math at college.
And now in NTU.
It just runs in the family.
We're born genius...

(Hope nobody reads 'We're born genius' or else I'm sure to get whack tomorrow)

Finally~

After 1 year and 2 months of waiting...
Bleach 3rd movie - Fade to Black DVD was finally released.
Its so damn cool.
Kisuke came back wearing the 12th squad captain's coat.
But he looks kinda weird...
I prefer seeing him wearing all green and a sandal hat.
Its also my 1st time seeing him fight so much.
Usually he'll just hold his hat 'Kurosaki-san, I'm counting on you...'

I wonder what the producer has against Kisuke.
Everything that happened is because Kisuke created something by accident or he's experimenting something.

Anyway, its a great movie.
Bleach fans should really watch it.

How Time Flies...

This year passed by so fast...
Almost too fast.
Final Exam is already on the way.
Maybe its because of the National Robotics Competition (NRC).
It was April when I got selected to join this competition.
Ever since then, my everyday life was occupied by trainings.
I stayed back almost everyday to train.
The training was fun, a very good experience and memory.
To be honest, I enjoyed it.
Although sometimes we got scolded by teacher for fooling around too much.
And just in a blink of eye, April to July was passed.

I seriously wished to thank teacher for choosing me to join this competition.
Because of this competition, I was able to meet new friends and now they've become my Jiejie.
I was also famous for a short while.
Yeah, a very short while.
Lasted for about... 1 week or shorter than that, I guess.
And then I'm back to normal, a nobody.
But that's fine with me.
I now understand more about teamwork, about my team, about teacher.
And I also have 4 pretty Jiejie.
We've also created our very own SDJ Robotics Club.
Now I only ask for my results to be good.
And also...

I'm So Proud Of Myself.

I'm so proud of myself.
I studied Chemistry until Chapter 4.
That's such a big achievement for me.
Lol.
Still have a long way to go.
1 week left to Final Exam.
Gotta stop fooling around.
But can't really blame me.
Today's weather is just too nice to sleep.
I don't know why I don't like sleeping or napping last time.
Its such a good thing to do.
I don't have to worry about anything or think of something that I don't want to think so while sleeping.
And I don't have to worry about becoming a panda also.
Haha.

The Last Day That I Can Enjoy~

This'll be the last day that I can enjoy.
Starting tomorrow, I'm gonna study very hard for this coming exam.
There's a lot of things that I need to memorize.
Like the ionic formula, the color of ions for Chemistry.
Name of people and places for History.
Lots of formula for Physics, Math and Add-Math.
Life is hard...

Lots of people were absent today.
So teachers didn't really teach much.
Playing poker whole day.
My first time getting straight flush today.
But still I didn't win the game cause other than that combo, other cards is just....

Found a few nice songs.
I've updated my playlist as well.
Everyone is welcome to comment.
And if there's any grammar mistakes in my post please kindly correct me.
Thank you.

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Deepavali is coming!
I planned to go out with some friends because its a holiday.
But i don't think most of my friends won't go also, due to the Final Exam approaching.
Anyway, I still have lots of things to catch up with.
Especially Chemistry, Physics, Add-Math and History.
Everything will have to postpone to after the stupid exam.
Anyway, even going out also don't know where to go.
Not many new movies during year end.

I'm starting to dislike holidays.
Always nothing to do.
Going to school and play would be nicer.
Like playing poker, or badminton.
Haven't played badminton since last year holiday.
My skills sure become rusty.
My drop shot was never good.
If I was to use drop shot again, sure drop on my own court.
And I don't know what can happen if i smash.
I'm sure I can't get it over the net if playing in a real court.
Maybe after Final Exam I'll find some friends and play badminton with me in a proper court.

As Stressful As 'Chin'

Just only finished my ULBS 2 for BM today.
Good thing I improved, compare to last ULBS.
Although is just 1 mark.
Haha.
Finally i can relax a bit.
Just A BIT...
Still have to prepare for my Final Exam.
And also my Moral Kerja Kursus which I'm suppose to do long time ago in a galaxy far far away.
What's with all these exams and projects?
Its just a waste of paper.
Just do all the exams online.
We have the technology...
That'll save time, money and natural resources.

Exam Is Coming...

As usual, Monday is boring~
Didn't study much.
Just feel like sleeping the whole day.

Exam is coming.
I'm still not in the mood of studying.
Someone force me to study please...
I've been saying that I wanted to start studying since September.
Yeah, September...
The day after National Day.
And now is October.
Exam is just 2 weeks away.
I'm still the same.
Fooling around everyday.

Its just the same as when I was preparing for PMR exam.
I started 1 month before the exam.
But only managed to read 3 chapters of History...
But in the week before the exam, I finished memorizing everything.
From Form 1 to Form 3.
Wow...
I'm seriously amazed by myself.
But this time is different.
I have more subjects than last year.
Better start earlier...

Just Go With The Flow~

A lot has happened these few days.
A lot of thinking and arguing is done.
There's nothing I can do.
I'm nothing but a mere human, a nobody.
I'm not a God.
I don't have the power to change people or to change the world.
Just go with the flow.
That's the best thing that can be done.

If I am to be hated, so be it.
If I am to be avoided, so be it.
That's her decision.
And all I can do is respect her decision.
Just wish that she wouldn't reject a birthday present from me next year.

A Day I Think Back On My STUPID Self...

Went to a relative's wedding dinner just now.
The groom is somehow related to me and i don't know that.
He is my cousin, according to my mum.
The bride is very pretty.
She looks kinda like a secondary school student because of her size and height.
The food was nice as well as the wine.

I'm here once again to apologize.
I'd like to apologize to all my friends.
I seek attention, that's why I'm always trying to find someone to chat with me.
So that i feel that people are paying attention to me.
But i guess that wasn't the best way.
People will find me annoying and irritating.
I'm really sorry for that.
And thank you for all those who tolerated me.

There's 4 people who i really wish to apologize to and do whatever i can to make up for my mistakes.
They are Wendy Jiejie, Sandy Jiejie, Huihui Jiejie and Xiaoxiao Jiejie.
You all have treated me as your didi.
And I guess I have took it for granted.
I've been disturbing the time that you're supposed to spend with your loved ones.
Perhaps its because of that, I ended up alone and all of you ignoring me.
I'm terribly sorry about that.
I'll do anything i can to make up for my mistakes.
Please don't ignore me.
Please forgive me.

I'm Sorry

First of all, I'd like to say sorry to Huihui Jiejie.
Yesterday i kinda lost control of my emotion.
If I've said anything that may have offended you, I'm sorry.

What Jack have said is true, even though i may not like it.
These few days someone does seems like avoiding me.
I don't like the feeling of not talking to someone.
But i don't like it even more when someone is ignoring me.
Perhaps i really have overdid what I've done.
I'm really sorry about that.
I'll try my best to change my attitude.
So that people around me won't feel that I'm annoying and irritating.

Sometimes i do hate myself for being trapped between my parents characteristics.
Shy and not good with socialising with people from my father.
Like the feeling of being in the centre of the crowd from my mother.
Stuck between these isn't a good thing.

A Sad Day...

I woke up and the sky is already sulking...
Few minutes later, the sky started crying.
Don't know why today is such a sad day.

Had a short conversation with my friend.
After that conversation, I asked myself...
'Do i belong here? Why am i here if i don't?'
I don't have many friends, and many find me irritating and annoying.
Still have 1 more year in this place.
After that, perhaps I'll go somewhere far away.
Some place that no one knows me.
There, I'll start my life anew and live as a completely different person.
Maybe that's the best solution.
Perhaps that's the best for everyone...

Typical Holiday~

Holiday...
Woke up late as usual.
Nothing to do.
Nowhere to go.
No mood to study.
Done 4 Add-Math questions and lazy to continue.
Not sure what's gonna happen to my Final Exam result...

Tomorrow is yet another holiday.
Everything is gonna be exactly the same as today.
I wonder how am i going to survive the year-end holiday.
2 months of holiday.
That's killing me.

What a normal day...

Didn't feel like going to school today.
Because of the perfect weather for sleeping.
Still i have no choice but to go, I can't cut class.

During History class, teacher brought her son along because there's no one that can take care of him.
He's very cute.
But i didn't care about him.
Because i was busy playing poker.
Haha.
Naveen, Ben and Chin was teaching him something...
I believe is something that is not really suitable for a kid.

After a whole day of studying (more like playing)...
I'm freaking tired and I can't really focus during Account class.
Almost fell asleep.
Thanked God Mr. Prabha have to attend a meeting.
So we left at 2.13pm.

Tomorrow is a holiday.
The only plan i have is stay at home and sleep for the whole day.
Not sure why now i don't really like holidays.
I used to love holidays...
Something sure is wrong with me...

My New Blog~

Welcome to my new blog.
I used to have one, that was about 3 years ago...
But due to laziness i didn't update that blog and then i forgotten the ID and password.
How lame...

Today is another normal school day.
But not a normal school life though.
Didn't study much...
Playing poker all day.
OMG...
I'm starting to become a typical bad boy.
Haha.

Starting tomorrow, Form 3 students will start sitting for their PMR exam...
The word PMR sounds so nostalgic.
Some of the Lower 6 students will have their MUET exam tomorrow as well.
To those sitting for exam this week...
Good Luck.
Especially to Wendy Jiejie ( to be honest i don't even know whether you're taking the exam or not), HuiHui Jiejie and that group.
(I don't know anyone else in that group taking the exam, so, sorry if i didn't mention your name)
And remember to give me back the luck after you've done your exam.
I'll be needing it for my Final Exam.
Haha.