Regrets...

I used to seek attention.
I wanted to be famous.
Now I'm not only famous, but infamous as well.
You can ask around... Who doesn't know me?
Especially that particular class.

I'm not really close to her before.
That hasn't change till now.
Even though I'm trying to get close to her right now...
It seems so hard.
They would've told her about my infamous deeds.
Getting a chance to talk to her would be hard, let alone getting close to her.

I've only lived in this world 17 years.
And I can't believe I actually have so many regrets already.

I regret that I never enjoy reading books.
Or my language would've been so much better.

I regret that I never tried to talk to other people and be friends with them because I'm shy.
Or else I wouldn't have been so lonely from time to time.

I regret that I never join a proper unit uniform.
Otherwise my ECA marks would've been very high.

I regret that I talk lots of craps.
Otherwise people wouldn't have find me irritating.

I regret that I believe in equality and treating everyone the same in certain ways.
Or else I wouldn't have made such a mistake.

I regret that I don't know how to talk.
Otherwise I wouldn't have lost so many friends.

"When taking a walk down memory lane, try not to trip over the regrets"
Said Elliot Westergaard.
But I already tripped.
It's so painful that it's hard to stand up again on my own...
Is there anyone that can help me up?