I'm not ready...

That day, I told her the truth...
I can feel the pain after her reply.
I was upset for a few days.
But after that, I feel normal...
Am I numbed by the pain?
Or I've never truly liked her before?
I don't know...
People often say "listen to your heart"...
What I hear is bip bop bip bop =.=
But I definitely don't like to see her with other guys.

Lately, I've thought about it a lot...
Perhaps I'm not ready for a relationship yet.
I'm still a kid.
I'm still immature.
I'm still incapable of taking care of myself, let alone taking care of her.
I don't have the ability to fulfill her needs.
Perhaps I'm really not ready for this.

Relationship is a complicated thing.
I'm still too young to understand that.
And I'm not smart enough to understand that.
Perhaps time will be willing to sacrifice itself to teach me.
Until it thinks that I'm ready...