I'm Sorry...

This post is specially for her.

I'm sorry for wanting to talk to you every time.
Every night, I feel lonely.
No one understands me, no attention is turned to me.
I may be 17, but I'm still a kid.
I don't know how to deal with loneliness.
All I know is to talk to someone to get rid of the feeling of loneliness.

You're a good person.
I know I've disturbed you most of the time.
But you never said anything.
Maybe cause you don't want to hurt my feelings.
But it hurts even more when you're just ignoring me.
I will feel much better if you could tell me the truth.
Even scolding me is fine.
Just don't ignore me, please...

If you want to tell me "It's okay cause we're friends, don't think too much"
I'm sorry.
But I don't believe in that anymore.
It's not that I don't trust you.
Maybe it's like a phobia to me.
Cause someone said the exact same sentence to me before.
I believed that.
In the end, it's the same.
They hated me.
I know I was in the fault, but it still hurts.

All I ever wanted is a little attention.
Someone that let me feel that I'm needed in this world.
It'll be selfish to ask you to give me that.
If you don't want to, I don't blame you.
Just tell me frankly.
Don't just ignore me...
Please...